Losing the Plot

Just when I am so close, the plot seems to go out the window. One day is blurring into the next, but not in a good way. Boredom and anxiousness have taken control and the time seems to be at a standstill, yet going forward at the same dreary time. I am finding new and creative ways to pass the time, but still the day ends the same as the last. I am so close to the end now, just 11 days left, yet it seems like an eternity in front of me. Funny that it could be so mental with so little time left, but I suppose I have been waiting a long time, and putting my life on hold for a long time. I keep imagining the things I will do, and the experiences I will have when I arrive back in Indonesia, and it brings a smile to my face, yet a frown that I am still here in lonely Sydney. It has been 10 days of dodgy weather of which I have worked about 2 1/2 days in total. My system here is extreme, but as long as I am making money and saving for the future then the effort is worth it. When I am just trying to pass days without working it becomes very trying. Without struggle there would be no joy in life I suppose. Without sadness you cannot have happiness. The extreme of my life here in Sydney is about to changed with extreme joy and elation when I do get back to Bali. At this stage, even the things i use to dislike about bali are becoming good memories. The motorbikes starting and stopping in front of your room, and stench in some of the alleyways of kuta, and even the traffic! What I would do to be stuck in traffic on a motorbike somewhere on Bali right now! Even a failed mission to the East side due to bad winds and no waves would bring a smile to my face. The feeling is loud and clear that my time in Sydney is up, there isn't any question about whether I should stay longer or not. I suppose its all trial and error, and now for next year I know exactly when to arrive and when to leave in terms of getting the most consistent work and spending the least amount of possible time in Sydney. With time comes experience, and I seem to have a lot of experience here in Sydney. I saw today the first legitimate looking SW swell forming in the Indian ocean, a real long period groundswell, and its meant to arrive just in time for me to arrive in Denpasar! The time has come to sell my van, pack up my stuff, and leave Australia until next summer. The next summer will present new challenges and tasks for me to deal with, including finding a new campervan and a new home base as my friend Liam has decided to move out of Sydney. I just hope I can keep this rhythm going, and keep living the dream, and if all goes well, I make the dream my full time reality by living in Indonesia full time. Till that happens I'll be here complaining about my struggles and strifes on my way to the top!