Addicted to Liquid

So I think I might actually be addicted to liquid, and I don't mean the kind you drink. There's something completely euphoric I feel when I am in the ocean, and that doesn't mean there needs to be a surfboard in the equation. Dont get me wrong here, I love surfing and obviously its my passion, as is exploration of new places and cultures and waves. What I am talking about here is simply the submersion of the body into water, and particularly the ocean. In clear, warm, salty water, you can swim around below the surface and open your eyes to a whole 'nother world of peaceful bliss. Down below there are no voices, noises, sounds of cars, etc, just the calming sound of the ocean. It is something that can truly bring tranquilityto the soul in the chaotic world of today. The fluidity and consistancy of water is something that brings inner peace and something that I need to get by day to day. It is becoming more and more apparent what the purpose of my life is, it all seems to make sense in a way that doesnt make sense. I know what I need to do, and I am doing it, yet I don't really know what it means. I am doing exactly what it is I want to do in my life at this very moment yet I dont know when the end is. I am building and arranging my future out as I learn more and more what it is that I want in this thing we call life. I'd rather have the experience of doing it rather than looking back wishing I had tried to do it. You can accomplish almost anything that you set your mind to, and its just a matter of setting your mind to the the right things. Its all mental. I am doing what it is that makes me happy and believe it or not it, it is getting me to exactly where I want to be in the grand scheme of things! The last I looked, isn't that what all of us are trying to do? Finding peace and happiness are the things most people struggle to find their entire lives, yet I already realise what makes me happy and have found a path of least pain to get me to that point! Though I am frustrated by not being in Indonesia right now, I know that I will be there in just under a month, and the means to get me there are what makes that place so amazing. Its all a means to an end. If you always just got what you wanted without having a course and mission to get there, then it wouldnt mean anything. If life was handed to you on a silver platter then it wouldnt be enough for you. Life is about conquest and accomplishments, it just depends on what your particular goals and ambitions are. GO ahead and try and understand it as you will, but I will not claim to know the purpose of life but I can tell you for sure that sitting behind a desk for some big company for 25 years isn't my purpose in this life. I suppose its the easy way out to sign on to that 'real job' as we are all expected to, but theres way too much out there to experience. Life experiences. And not the working type. Anyone can get good or skilled at almost any job after time, and you dont need a degree to do that. The standards of society have little to do with what most individuals actually value. Or at least me. My values seem to be dramatically different to values of the typical westerner. My job is a bit different, but I am doing what makes me happy and you know what, I'm pretty good at it. I seem to have become alienated by materialsim and consumerism that seems to have swept over the rest of the world since I have been disconnected with it. Technology and what people now 'need' is just getting crazy. These phones that are internet connected and GPD located and 'handy' to the point that you have to have one trips me out. Now you can be tracked and plugged in wherever you go, its so convenient. I'm saying its too convenient, and I dont mean to sound like an old guy here. Pull your head out of your ass modern day society! It's getting way to techy and people dont even realize it, but unfortunately its that way of the future, and so it consumerism materialism. You can't not have one of those phones if you live in a developed country, and its nearly at that standard even in countries where people can barely afford to make end meet and feed their families. Think about that, its F---ing retarted.